Back home from training.
Exhausted, making me think of things that I don't wanna remember.
Thursday is the real test.
and I have yet to plunge the correct way.
So stressed up about that.
Ugh. Okay i'm not gonna care about LS till thursday..

Its not that I am acting like this for no reason..
But its not nice when people come up to you and warn you
about some impending doom when in reality nothing much is really going on.
And it also means someone is saying stuff behind my back,
in a heated/whatever manner. and it doesn't feel nice.
It makes me upset.
No one has faith in me. Like zero.
Then why should I have faith in myself?

I'm already so strung out like a thread that's about to snap,
and i'm holding on to the best of my ability,
but no one seems to see anything.
I am dangling off some cliff, but my pinky still holds on.
I won't let go.
I just need my space.
Why can't anyone trust me?
That's why I feel so frustrated.
I know i'm not perfect,
I am aware of my mistakes.
I'm not stupid.


I hate it when things blow out of proportion.
All I want is stability in my life.
Nothing seems to be going right in all areas of my life right now.
Nothing.




I just feel like screaming.